Cold Turkey Diaries: Week 4

This past week has been much better. I'm not sure if it's a matter of things getting better or mental cravings going down but frustration and depression are much lower. They're still not fantastic but I don't feel like very graphic tortures are being done to my genitalia anymore. The month mark is Friday so hopefully things just continue to get better.

Cold Turkey Diaries: Week 3

I'm losing it. I know the mental side effects were going to be the worst part but this is way worse than I ever thought. It could be that I just picked the wrong time to quit (depression is a given since I'm always depressed in January anyway)and fate has a way of fucking me over constantly and every chance it gets but just, wow. Just that mental craving is more than anything my body has thrown at me so far. Work, where I smoked the most, is the real proving ground. This past Friday I had a very clear idea of what it is like to go mad. "The drone" as I call it, or the combined voices of a packed bar, was hammering at my psyche like a diamond tipped, ball pin hammer. On top of that, finances are the lowest they have been in two years so that is more weight on stress. Just overall I am not having a good month. That sentence, by the way, is the SINGLE most understated thing I have ever said or typed. A better way to describe how this month has been is to imagine an Iron Pronged Pitchfork, red hot, being stabbed DIRECTLY into my urinary meatus while my foreskin is stretched out like a rubber band and plucked like a banjo string.

The Cold Turkey Diaries: Week 2

I did say I was going to post less as this went on. Week two had very little physical side effects. It takes approximately five days for nicotine to completely leave the body. This could explain why day five was so difficult for me. Right now I have just been dealing with the mental effects which will probably take longer to stop. These include the cravings at work, after eating, while walking, etc. pretty much everywhere I would smoke on a regular basis my brain equates with smoking so therefore out of habit it says "something's missing here." Since most of the side effects are gone, I'm going to start on the benefits.

Circulatory

-First thing's first, sex is great. Improved circulation has improved erection strength and sensitivity and now that's out of the way.

Respiratory

- My sinuses are still not totally clear but I am starting to get my sense of smell back. This in turn is also affecting my taste. For instance, last week I was walking to work and I tasted the air. If anyone is curious, Philadelphia air tastes very bitter.

Mental and Endocrine

-Just today the lethargy I was feeling from lack of that one stimulant has ceased. ---Sleep has been shorter but of better quality.
-Testosterone levels have increased (did I mention sex is great?) so I have been more aggressive but positively so.
-I'm actually dealing with frustrations and problems as opposed to smoking them away and pushing them to the back of my head to fester.

Alright, that about covers it. I'll post in a week at the very latest.